That pain :'(

Even if I hated someone , I would NEVER wish this pain on them <|3 That consistant , tear jurking , numbing , restless , undying , bleeding , depressing , unwilling pain. Ya know ? That pain when you pour your heart out to someone , and let down your gaurd for the first time. When you trust that person enough to tell your dreams to.. Or when you start to make future family plans because that's who you want to spend your life with. When you give each other songs because the lyrics are soo perfect & they're all of the words that you can't say <3 When you tell that person you love them & you really mean it.. & they say it back because you two are invincible together. When you have "iloveyoumore" fights & they always end with that perfect kiss. When you stand there with that stupid look on your face because you're arguing over something completely pointless.. Well , that's practically all of the good. people love to tell you about that.. but they forgot to mention the bad.. You know , when the fights start constantly , and you just want to give up on everything ? Or when you feel like shit because you said something to make them upset or to make them mad ? Or when you sit there and think about them while they ignore you & pretend it's nothing , that pain ? Or when you tell them you love them , because you really do , and you care about them soo much it hurts & they call you a liar , that pain ? Or when you cry yourself to sleep every night because you just want everything to go back to the way it was when there was love ? Or when you think all those crazy thoughts , and you start to believe the things people say ? Or when you do something so stupid because you would give your life for them to know how much you love them , and they still dont care.... ? I wouldnt want anyone to feel the pain of realizing someone doesnt love you anymore.. Because it makes you want to kill yourself.. But you dont because , despite the fact that your world just fell apart , you know the sun will still come up tomorrow... Or will it ?